Endings (NaBloPoMo #30)

Endings can be sweet and sour. Today was the ending of a lot of things.

Sweet Endings:
1. NaBloPoMo, I have enjoyed getting a lot of things sorted out through this blog but feeling like i had to post was stressful.
2. First month of Project 365, I haven't been very good with posting lately but it's cool to have 30 pictures down and liking most of them.
3. First month of Day Zero finished, Not as much as I thought I would have done, finished but its a good start.
4. Script Frenzy! I'm finished! I only had about 75 pages that were pretty easy and then the rest was a struggle but I am finally done!

Sour:
1.No more park performances for dance. We basically burned the skin off our feet trying to dance one a black floor at the beginning of summer.
2. End of so many things and yet school continues :-(

Negativity (NaBloPoMo #29)

I am so tired of hearing negativity! Kim and I went to FMSC and there were a bunch of 2nd graders there and Kim has been in a bad mood the rest of the day. Going in it was obvious that this was going to be slower than normal, its a bunch of little kids. Now the rest of the day she has been mad about everything. Everything is ten times more dramatic than it needs to be. and she was just complaining that everyone else is being over dramatic. Ugh I am almost looking forward to the Pinion meeting tonight and I really wasnt earlier. Can I just fast forward the next hour and a half?

Mommy's Day (NaBloPoMo #28)

So I've already gotten or ordered all of moms stuff for Mothers day and now I am contemplating getting something for Kim. No, Kim is not pregnant. I just thought since her pet snake dies and her skink is having some health issues right now and plus having such a difficult semester on top of that, she is as good as a mom. My only problem at this point is that I don't wanna take the day away from mom since she doesn't really get that much recognition in the first place, I don't want to be rude. I dunno, I'll probably just end up not doing it but I will think about it while I am sitting in the bath tub for my spa night tonight. Speaking of which I need to finish some reading for school so I don't feel too guilty when I'm not reading it later. :-)

Black Hole Suckyness (NaBloPoMo #27)

So my presentation sucked like a black hole. The good thing is everyone else's sucked either the same or worse and my teacher wasn't even there to see us suck that bad. Also on the plus side, I don't need to go on Friday. Well we weren't told that but there were only 3 people there today that didn't present and basically no one else is going since they don't have to present. So Kim and I are going to FMSC instead. Yay! Ok, I just realized that that is too big of a coincidence that Kim was planning on going the Friday that I end up not having to go to school on for that not to be God so: Thank you God! I would definitely much rather be packing food than going to watch presentations that I don't care about.
So my plans for the end of this week are to have a spa day for myself tomorrow hopefully while reading my new library books. Other than spa times I need to be reading Infancy stuff and doing study guides. I also have a performance at the park near the studio to deal with.
Good news is that April is so close to being over and I can't wait. The sooner April ends the sooner I will be free of school for a while!

Stupid People (NaBloPoMo #26)

So, I should be sleeping right now, especially since I have a presentation that is copletely messed up tomorrow. My team, as individual people are pretty cool but as a team we suck. Our powerpoint is just a mass of words which I would hate to be looking at if I were the audience. Well I guess there are two slides that arent, mine. My slide stick out like a sore thumb to me bacause they seem so bare.
Another thing I can complain about is the fact that I have to try and speak for 4 min on two slides because someone apparently did a better job at the second half of my section so they put her slides in instead. I am hoping that someone else is speaking on those slides because for one, I have no clue what exactly is on them and for two, what I have see on them is a repeat of the syptoms and I dont want to look like an idiot repeating the same thing for 5 slides.
I juat want tommorow morning to be over with. I'm already in a bad mood and I havent even gotten to sleep yet.

5, 4, 3, 2, 1 (NaBloPoMo #25)

So these last few posts might just be a countdown till the end of this I am just tired of having nothing to say . . .

So Close (NaBloPoMo #24)

6 more days, although it has been interesting and kind of nice blogging everyday for a month, I probably should have chosen a different month. I'm pretty sure I originally though having a ton of stuff going on would help me but that hast really been the case. Really, having all the other stuff to do has made me put off blogging until the end of the day where I crank out a nonsense Blog just to check it off my list. I'm thinking about doing this again in the summer so I hopefully can actually write somewhat meaningful blogs. Although even if I do that I can imagine not wanting to do anything since it's summer and putting it off till the end of the day and having them end up just like they are now . . . I will think about it.

Easter (NaBloPoMo #23)

It's the day before Easter and all through the house,
there's not a egg to be hidden not even for the mouse.
The baskets are tucked in the closet back there,
in hopes, no one will notice how they lay bare.
The teens are doing their own things unaware,
that the magic of Easter cant be found anywhere.

I feel very disillusioned. No, I did not just find out that the Easter Bunny is not real. Tomorrow when I wake up there wont be any eggs hidden in all the usual places. I know that I'm 18 and I'm getting too old for things like egg hunts but I still feel sad that I wont be able to make fun of my parents for not being original in where they hid the eggs, or search the house frantically for that last egg that we are just told has money instead of candy in it, or find that egg with money that we never found the year before. This Christmas we wont be able to laugh about the egg we find when we are redecorating. I guess the hunt isn't what I will miss, it's the memories that come with it . . .

A Little Bit Longer (NaBloPoMo #22)

I feel a little bit like a retard, seeing as I'm 18 and naming this after a Jonas Brothers song, but I'm wearing a JB shirt and I just saw them on a commercial so I'm calling it good. :-) There is actually a point to this other than that I am a too old JB fan.
I cant wait until school is over. I'm even almost waiting for the recital to just be done with, almost. I know this is going to sound stupid and its gonna get my hopes smashed when nothing happens but I feel like something is supposed to happen this summer and I'm anxious to find out what it is, if it is anything. I'm just so ready for it to be summer! Just a little bit longer ;-)

In The Wind (NaBloPoMo #21)

I love the wind. I love sitting and feeling the world move around me. I know, at least then that I don't have to be moving with it and I'm not getting left behind. In everyday life I feel like I'm being left behind, like my personal wind isn't strong enough . . . I'm just not having a good day.

Oh, Don't Worry I Already Feel Stupid . . . (NaBloPoMo #20)

You would think that if someone was constantly ridiculed for their choice in degree field that they would refrain from telling someone else that their degree is pointless. Right? Well apparently, Kim didn't get that memo since almost every time we talk about classes and degrees she is telling me that I'm not going to get anywhere with a degree in Social and Behavioral Science and that its basically Psychology so why didn't I just go for a psych degree. This is not what I want to hear when I don't even know what I'm planning to do when I graduate.

You would also think that if you were just talking about being teased for you degree choice that your last thought would be to make fun of someone else's but that too is apparently only common sense in my brain.

I'm so tired of being wrong! I can't wait to move out.

Stress! (NaBloPoMo #19)

Stress is starting to build up! It doesn't help your last few weeks of school, when everything is due at the same time, when your family apparently doesn't give a crap about you or your time. Yes I realize that people think that All I do with my life is play around and write stuff that does absolutely nothing for me but that is only because I know, if someone comes into my room, I will get nothing productive done so i switch to something else.

Today for example, I was just starting to watch a video that I needed to answer questions on when Kim walks in trying to find something to do while she takes a break from her homework. She asks me what I'm doing and I tell her I'm doing school. Now, if this had happened the other way around I would have left because, it's school, no one wants to do it in the first place so once you are doing it you just want to get it over with. But, no. Kim sits down on my bed and proceeds to tell me the list of school work that she has gotten done and still needs to do and how stressed she is. Seriously? You think I am not stressed too? I have more finals than you do and I have projects and things on top of that.

I realize that she has a lot of papers and things due super soon and I sympathize and i feel bad and I try to listen patiently while she complains. But I feel like if I do that for you I should get at least half of that in return even if you think you are more stressed out than me!

Of course I am probably wrong, I usually am on these things, and if I brought it up it would just end up being a fight about who is the most stressed which would get us nowhere. I honestly cannot wait until I can move out. I have basically made up my mind that I am going to start applying for a second job next semester. I want to be left alone.

Whoosh! (NaBloPoMo #18)

I feel bad for my poor puppy. She does not like the wind at all and it has been pretty windy lately. :-( Well, it's not so much that she doesn't like the wind, its that she doesn't like the smells that come with the wind. She's a jumpy dog in the first place so smelling something scary on the wind sends her running for the door and keeps her inside except for the mandatory potty breaks.

Also unfortunately for her I love the wind. So windy day combined with really nice temperature outside equals me sitting outside reading while Zoe watches me from the kitchen door. It was so pitiful, especially since I knew that if it hadn't been windy i would have been playing with her outside, not watching her watch me.

Poor baby.

In other news, my ballet class needs to be revamped. It is the only class that my girls do not take correction in, and they are all the same girls for all three, ballet tap and jazz. I don't understand it!

I will have to try to fix that for next year.

Sleep Is Not Productive But It Is Oh So Nice. (NaBloPoMo #17)

After that long sleepover that I actually didn't enjoy, I normally dread going and then have a pretty good time but that didn't happen this time, I was exhausted. My previous experience with sleepovers is that I get really tired after them but I stay awake all day and then just sleep real well the next night. I guess that was not on the schedule for this time.

I made it through church and it wasn't too bad, I ate lunch and started being somewhat productive. And then Kim comes in, we talk about a lot of random stuff, end up getting in a teeny weeny fight (We were both really tired and later apologized), and then I am left laying on my bed . . . bad idea. I fall asleep and don't wake up until it's time to go back to church, if I got up immediately. That didn't happen and although I was planning on getting up and being productive some more, I fell asleep . . . until mom and Kim came back from church. Not exactly how I wanted to spend my day. Not that it wasn't nice or anything, I just had a lot of things that I wanted to get done.

In other news, Gem almost got murdered today. After the sleep over she decided that she was too tired to go to church. That was annoying in the first place but her reasoning was just the icing on the cake. "I'm just too tired, I wont want to talk to any of the kids, you wouldn't want me at a party if I was going to be this tired." Really? For one, the three other people at the sleep over, who slept the same amount as you all went to church. Two, you are saying that you cant put some sleep deprivation aside in order to talk to some fifth and sixth graders for an hour? I think that says a lot about how much you actually care about these kids. And last, not to say Club 56 isn't fun but comparing it to a party? Really? This is your commitment, not a weekend fling. Show some loyalty.

Quickie (NoBloPoMo #16)

So I have a lot going on this weekend which is why I am going to just do a really quick post.

Today I have been up since 6:30 and have been to FMSC and stuck a bunch of stickers on a bunch of bags. That was fun but there were a lot of extremely loud, obnoxious, teenagers. Its a good thing Kim and I were on stickers without anyone else for most of the time. :-)

After that we drove to Wendy's and picked up lunch. Yum! Now I am at the dance studio. I have an hour and fifteen minutes before I have my dance class and then I have to go home and possibly clean the yard and give Zoe a bath. Those are only if I have enough time before I have to pick Emelia up and go to Gem's house for a sleepover.

Ugh, I know I will probably have fun but it has already been a long day and i already want to go to sleep. :-P

Attitude Adjustment (NaBloPoMo #15)

I'm assuming my newest challenge, as per God, is to work on having a good attitude even when I am not especially happy. After my cooking experiments did not work too well last night i was just frustrated and annoyed and in a generally bad mood and that mood transfered to this morning when Kim was annoying me a little bit and then having to rush around to shop. It also didn't help much that I just didn't want to be in a good mood, I wanted to have my little pity party. But, when I noticed I was starting to take my annoyance out on my mom I stopped and prayed for the strength to find a good attitude, and it kind of worked.

Then comes time to go to the studio. I have to stay late at the studio, or at least later than normal cause mom is taking the day off. I dont really mind, it's not a big deal. What was actually annoying me once we got there was Jessica and her dogs. They are adorable (Other than the fact that one of them has really bad gas, which I currently smell like :-() but they are so out of control.

One of the things that I can't stand with dogs and dog owners is when the owner keeps repeating a command (like 'sit'), over and over again. I am also not fond of forcing a dog to do what you want more than the first time or two or else you are rewarding the dog for something they didn't even do. Anyway, Jessica is not especially good at disciplining her kids so I dont know why I thought she would be any better at training two dogs. They are all over the place and constantly fighting to find out who is the alpha.

Jessica is convinced that as long as she shows them that she is the alpha there wont be a problem because thats how it worked with her last dog. But, her last dog was an only child, so to speak, now she has two sister. Another problem with her theory is that she isn't showing them that she is supposed to be the alpha. I don't even especially believe in the whole alpha dog thing, but if I did, she is doing it all wrong. They drag her every which way on the leash and do whatever the hell they please. If she is even trying to be alpha, she is doing a horrible job. I wish I could try and train them. Which I might see if she will let me do that over the summer. She want's to get another girl we know to train them but she does agility training and they kind of need some obedience training first so I'll see what I can do :-)

Anyways, I got off track, because of how annoying she and her dogs were being, I was starting to get really annoyed and I just couldn't wait until she left. I have now checked myself and am in a much better mood but i wish I could have thought of it earlier so that I could have tried to adjust while still being annoyed but, oh well, baby staps right?

A Little Birdie Made My Day (NaBloPoMo #14)

On the way to class today I saw this little bird who made my day. Now, Don't laugh at me because I would rather be entertained by the little things than go through life less happy than I could be. This little bird was hilarious, he would either hop or run a few inches and then he would stop, pull his wings out a little bit at a time and then fold them back and do it all over again. It was the cutest thing. :-D It's the little things in life that just make my day.

I guess that's all I have to say for today other than . . .

YAY!!!!!!! I'm halfway done with April.

This means a few things

~Halfway done with NaBloPoMo

~Halfway done with Script Frenzy (And caught up)

~Only a month and a half away from recital

~3 weeks away from the end of school

~Two weeks into my Day Zero challenge and I have already crossed 2 or 3 things off my list :-D

I am so proud of myself and happy that I have made it this far! I cant wait to finish out the month. (Hopefully as strong as I started out!)

Good Nights = Good Days (NoBloPoMo#13)

Last night was amazing! . . . . Well it was mostly amazing! I am in such a good mood this morning that I don't even mind to much that I have to go to a class that I REALLY don't like anymore.

Last night I . . .

~Caught up and got ahead of my Script Frenzy goal

~Didn't feel like Lyrical was the longest class in the world

~Experimented with dinner

~Liked what came out of my dinner experiment

~Got all the pictures and things that I needed done

Amd Best of all!!!!

~I found out that my sister-in-law is pregnant!!!!!!

That last one is the one I am SUPER excited about. I know it isn't set in stone but I juat have a feeling she is going to have a little girl! I have 4 nephew right now and while I love them to death, I am waiting for that little girl that I can shower with glitter! AHHHH!!! :-) I heard about it yesterday and had a grin for an our later and now I can't stop smiling again :-D Part of the reason this is also amazing news is because a while ago this sister-in-law had told us she didn't think she could have kids so it was probably the best surprise ever!!!!!

Criminal (NaBloPoMo #12)

I feel like a criminal. Part of my head is telling me that it's no big deal and another part is screaming "Oh My Gosh! You Ran A Red Light!!!!!!"

Yes, I ran a red light. it was completely on accident. I don't think they take that as an excuse though. I was driving home from cleaning the studio and I wasn't paying attention. There's this light by a high school and it's almost never red or at least it only turns red as you're coming up to it. This time it was red before I got there and I didn't even realize it. I nearly had a heart attack when I realized as I went through the intersection. The good thing is that this light it pretty deserted, there is rarely anyone going through it so there wasn't even anyone around to see me run through.

I feel so horrible and i have this little headache that has been getting worse since it happened. Now I'm a little worried about driving. It feels to me like my concentration on driving and, as a result, my driving skills have been deteriorating lately. Frankly, i scare myself . . . Well that's all the freak out session I have time for, gotta go to school.

Good News, Bad News (NaBloPoMo #11)

~Good News: I got my entire class extra credit because I asked about the stupid presentation that originally had no points attached to it and was a completely pointless waste of time.

~Bad News: We still have to do the presentation and it is still a completely pointless waste of time AND he still hasn't given my group the study we need to put our presentation together.

~Good News: One of the girls I teach seems like she is starting to understand the dance things that are harder to grasp

~Bad News: She still looks kind of bad because the other girls don't get it at all

~Good News: I am getting a lot of stuff done for the studio (Finale choreography, recital cd . . .)

~Bad News: I am not getting much of my school work done.

I guess life is full of goods and bads, you just have to take it all in stride.

Humility (NaBloPoMo #10)

I don't know exactly why I'm writing on this subject other than for the fact that I have laughed a few times in the past week because of people's lack of humility. Dont get me wrong, it's good to be proud of the things you do and who you are but recently I have seen that taken to the extremes. I'm not sure if it has really become more contagious than normal or if I am just noticing it more than normal.

This week I have either heard or read (Texting or message boards) comments like:

"Thanks to my overly caring and grnerous nature"

"Well, I'm going to be there and thats the main reason he would go."

And theses comments were in all seriousness!

How do you even let something like that come out of your mouth, or worse, how do you press the send button when you have to type it out? Isn't there a filter in people's heads that tells them, "I will come off looking like a pretentious snob if I say this."? Maybe they have a filter and they just decided that the filter was broken . . .

Well that was my little rant for the day, I should go get other things done so I can go to sleep :-)

Competition (NaBloPoMo #9)

I am starting to get the feeling that my friend is crushing on my crush . . . Which is ok with me, generally, but it does make me feel a little threatened.

So my friend . . . lets call her Priscilla (:-P), was texting me on Thursday . . . or it was Friday afternoon, I cant remember. We were talking about the meeting and she invited me to hang out with her, and a few of the teenage/college people who were going on the trip, after the meeting. This group was supposed to include my crush . . . Let's call him Connor . . . so initially I was like, "Yeah, sure I'll go." and then the first weird thing happened, Priscilla says "Well we are going to be staying out pretty late . . ." I was assuming that anyway but then as I thought about it more, I remembered that I would have to get up early and decided not to go.

Priscilla made fun of me a little but I thought it was kind of strange that she would invite me and then seem to try to get me to back out. But, whatever.

Then, today I asked her if she had fun hanging out with everyone and she went off telling me that it was ok but Connor ditched and it made her feel bad about herself and went off on a little pity party, which I thought was strange because even if I like a guy, I am not going to feel bad about myself if he ditches hanging out with a group of people that I am included in. And, I definately wouldn't feel bad about myself if I wasn't crushing on the guy.

Those incidents, along with a conversation we had a while ago about me not being upset that she, Connor and some other guy had hung out after the last meeting that I couldn't go to, make me start to suspect that she likes him too.

I think this upsets her more than it does me cause my thoughts are that you like who you like and guys like who they like. Just cause I like a guy and you hide your feelings about a guy doesn't make it anymore likely that he will decide to ask me out or whatever. I find that "Girl Code" dibs type system retarded. Girls can like the same guy and it is his choice who he is going to pay attention to.

The only reason I feel a little threatened by this is because I am a very shy person and she is not. I'm scared that he will end up liking her instead of me but in the end, what happens happens. Priscilla is pretty and gets hit on a lot. I guess just because she might like him now doesn't make him anymore likely to like her. She would be more outgoing than me in any case. I guess I am also now afraid that if she likes him and he asks me out, she might be upset. . . I don't know, I might be reading to far into this, like I do often. I should just ignore it and go to bed.

Good night, hopefully this all works out in the end. :-)

Outsider (NaBloPoMo #8)

I hate being an outsider. I guess part of the reason why I hate it so much is because I always feel like one. I cant remember a time that I really felt that I belonged somewhere. I guess when I was at my old dance studio. I felt like an insider. I belonged there because I had been there since ever.

Now I feel like I cant be an insider because I am an insider. That doesn't really make sense, but it does. I'm the owners kid, I feel like I'm not especially friends with anyone at the studio because I feel like I'm a spy of sorts. I also am older than most of them. Of course that doesn't mean that I am really friends with other teachers either. Kristy's older than me and she is also my teacher as well as being a coworker, so that is complicated. Kristin, while she is a decent person and I don't think she is absolutely horrible, she just isn't who I have a real desire to be great friends with.

Sorry, I should tell you what brought this on. I went to the Pinon meeting and, while it was pretty fun, I felt like a retard most of the time. I felt like an outsider. I know I expected it but feeling it and wanting so much to be part of a group right now, it was not very easy for me. I don't know. I guess I'm waiting to feel like I belong and nothing that I try works. Pinon is just another attempt to be a part of a group and I just don't know if it's going to work . . .

This Weekend (NaBloPoMo #7)

Ugh Procrastination :-( So, I have nothing to write about today, or at least nothing that springs to mind 45 min after my bed time so I was going to use the NaBloPoMo prompt for today but it was about a lucky item, of which I have none. So instead I am using the one for tomorrow which is already posted and asks: What is one thing you are looking forward to this weekend?

The one thing I am looking forward to this weekend . . . I kind of have two but one is not actually on the weekend, depending on what you count as the weekend. The one that doesn't count is tomorrow. I have a meeting to go to for a missions trip (Pinon) I am going on. The family who are the central coordinators of this are old family friends who are a very funny group so it's sure to be a fun meeting. I wasn't able to go last time which was the first meeting cause of something else so I am excited to see what's going to happen. There is another reason that I am excited to go to this meeting, I happen to be crushing on one of the sons of this family. I went on a different missions trip with him last year and developed this crush and, although I really haven't seen him since we got back from that trip I am still crushing pretty bad. It doesn't help that I am a hopeless romantic and have a way overactive imagination. :-)

The second thing I am looking forward to is going back to FMSC on Saturday. FMSC stands for Feed My Starving Children. You can volunteer to pack food that is sent to starving children around the world. Kim and I have been going a lot lately and I finally figured out how to describe why we go. I used to say it was fun but then everyone goes 'Doing the same repetitive motion, over and over again is fun?' I guess fun wasn't the right word. It's enjoyable. And I mean that in the best possible way. I don't have to think a lot and I'm doing something for someone else at the same time. It's enjoyable.

So that is what I am looking forward to this weekend. Also, I'm going to work on my left handed writing but thats not so much a set thing as a 'I hope I get to it' thing. :-)

Ahhh! Procrastination and Stress (NaBloPoMo #6)

So, I'm pretty sure I've been over this before but when I get stressed out, I don't sleep. It's not that I'm not tired, I just don't want to go to sleep for whatever reason. If you haven't figured it out, I am having that problem now. It's not super late yet but I've already stayed up an hour and 15 min after I should have gone to bed. And as usual, I have no idea what the source of my stress is.

Oh subconscious mind, why cant you just be helpful for once and tell me what is wrong so I can fix it?

At this point I am tired and I need to pee, but I just don't want to get up and do either. how stupid is that, I would rather read or mess around online. . . This doesn't count as messing around since I needed to do this anyway. (P.S. I am close to screwed with this whole blog a day thing now that I have started pushing my blogging to the end of the day cause I am positive I am going to procrastinate or forget and then I will have to start all over again :-()

I Really need to pee now so I think I am going to go do that and hope in the process I can convince myself to get some sleep . . . not likely but I will try.

My Achilles Heel (NaBloPoMo #5)

Have you ever eaten Pub Mix?

That probably sounds really strange but I have a reason, kinda. I have found out that if I know that there is pub mix around, it will not live to see morning. I have basically no self control when it comes to the stuff. It is amazing! Which is slightly frustrating when you are trying to eat healthy.

Plus the only reason we have it is because my grandpa didn't like it, I ate almost half the container on the first night! Ugh, not good. but the bright side is that I am doing better with watching what I eat. I got calcium supplements (Yes they are the kids gummy bear kind ^^) and I have been staying in healthy ranges for everything else . . . except when I am around pub mix.

Why cant I be normal and have a weakness like chocolate?

Is It Tomorrow Yet? (NaBloPoMo #4)

So last night I was a little worried because I didn't have anything that I really wanted to talk about and I didn't really just want to ramble about nothing. But, of course, my life would never want me to just ramble about a boring life so it gave me a horrible morning to talk about.

I had a test this morning and while I was not expecting to do amazing since I did not study very much I did a lot worse than I was planning. this just adds to the frustration of the class because I used to like it but now my teacher keeps canceling class and the lectures are basically just reading the headers from the book and saying to go read it. I am so apathetic about this class because it feels like my teacher is just giving up on it so why should I put any effort in?

Then I get home and realize that my computer, which has been having trouble since it doesn't seem to like the charger anymore, is about to run out of battery because I couldn't wiggle it into the right spot. Thankfully I did manage to get it to charge and I am trying to just get everything I need done as fast a gently as possible without moving the computer whatsoever. My dad is going to look at it when he has time but he is working on taxes so it might be a while. Why did this have to happen this month, when I need my computer to do stuff? At least on Mondays and Wednesdays I can do stuff at school but still, this is not helping.

So, I think that is sufficient complaining to constitute a blog post don't you? :-)

Meant for More (NaBloPoMo #3)

Have you ever felt like you were meant to do more or be more than you are currently?

I have had this feeling for a while now and it's so frustrating. I feel like I'm supposed to go out and do new things, like live in Hawaii and visit Europe, but everything I do to try and get me there just falls through. It's so frustrating feeling like you are supposed to be doing something and wanting to do it but not being able to. And, I know I am supposed to be trusting God and asking Him what I am supposed to be doing and I am, kinda, but I have never felt this way before about anything so I kind of feel like this is what people talk about when they say "God laid it on my heart to do this" so I would assume that if God 'lays something on my heart' shouldn't God also show me the way to do it?

I feel like since I seem to have no purpose or goal where I am, it would be the perfect reason to go somewhere else but I cant get there so what do I do?

Photo Quotes (NaBloPoMo #2)

(In case you cant read the quote, it says: Part of being a hero is knowing when you don't need to be one anymore. ~Alan Moore)

So yesterday, when all my challenges started, I took that picture ^ for Project 365 and did an Amazing job editing it if I do say so myself :-D

Then I was looking at it and it had this big open space where the window is and, because of the editing, it looked really white. So I looked at my quotes for the day and found that Alan Moore quote and thought it would be the cutest thing ever to put the two together. So I did. :-)

Now I have decided to try and do that everyday, pick one of the quotes from that day (I don't want to spend hours searching the web for a quote that perfectly goes with my picture) and then put it into the photo.

Hopefully the rest turn out as well as this one did.

P.S.
I have no idea why this is all underlined, but I cant figure out how to fix it so, oh well. :-)

New Beginnings (NaBloPoMo #1)

So I guess I should tell you all of the things that I am starting today . . .

1. NaBloPoMo ~ Write a blog post everyday for a month ~ which is why I didn't post anything yesterday about everything I'm starting today cause I wanted to kill two birds with one stone :-)

2. Script Frenzy ~ Write 100 pages of script in the month of April ~ I think I'm most excited about this one since I have never written a script before.

3. Officially starting Day Zero ~ This is the 101 things in 1001 day thing ~ I technically started some of the things on my list but they are the 'Read 100 books' and stuff like that so I don't think it really matters.

4. 365 Project x2 ~ Take a picture everyday for a year ~ I'm doing this one x2 because I want to take a picture of myself everyday for a year, but the actual goal of the project is supposed to be like a scrapbook of your everyday life kinda thing. So I decided to do both.

So wish me luck, I'm doing all of this, everyday, plus I have school work and soon finals to worry about :-0 But it will be fun, I'm sure of it. :-)