Feeling Lonely

I'm so sick of feeling lonely. I'm sick of always wanting a boyfriend and almost always thinking of having a boyfriend. I want to stop but I cant seem to. I'm sick of crying over this but I cant stop. Every time I think I'm getting over it, forgetting it, something comes up and I end up crying again. Now it seems every week I get over it and then the weekend comes and I'm surrounded by reminders that I don't have anyone. And to make matters worse Jacen is constantly talking about guys and boyfriends and crushes around me. He's always asking what I like in a guy and who I like and what I'm doing to get them to notice me. And then when I say I'm not doing anything cause I'm too shy to he starts going on about how guys probably just think I'm out of their league. Yeah right. I'm sorry that that's the natural response out of every girl but seriously. The guys I'm around have been around me for years and you're telling me not one of them has the courage to ask out the girl who never has a guy romantically linked to her . . . ever? That just isn't plausible.

Boyfriend Blues

Boyfriends suck. Not that I would know cause I've never had one so I guess it's just that other peoples boyfriends suck. I mean Jacen, Kimmy's boyfriend, is cool and all but not when he's over at 10 o'clock at night watching a very loud movie in the back of out house where my room is when I wanna go to sleep. This was what I didn't like about Nick, Kimmy's last boyfriend. Whenever he came over I felt like I got kicked out of my TV room cause he and Kimmy were in there and being the third wheel really sucks. At least with Jacen it isn't so much of a kicking out as a voluntary banishment. With Nick, he would glare at me if I even came close to walking into the TV room. This still suck though cause I'm tired and tomorrow we're having a party for my grandparents anniversary so I kinda wanna get some sleep. :-( This sucks.