So this whole boyfriend thing is not going well. I don't remember where I left off last time which couldn't have been more than a week or two ago . . . or three days ago . . . wow this weekend has been Insane with the capitol I. About 12 hours after my last post I had half broken up with Michael. I told him to give me until the next day to decide on keeping dating or just being friends. Friday before noon we were oficially done but still friends.
Between then and saturday night I had cried everytime I talked to him because I feel like crap for dumping him. And saturday night hearing from two of my friends that he was freaking out and said he was contemplating suicide. Fun fun. I call him find out that its not just my fault its also another of his ex's fault. oh goodie. Then I go and have a 2 hour talk with my dad which didn't really help.
Sunday I find out more of what Michael said to my friends . . . not good stuff and I plan to have a conversation with him to tell him that if he cant drop all the talking about us dating then I dont think we can continue being friends. (I know it sounds harsh but from prior experience, if I kept down the same path I would get honestly depressed and that is no good) So he says he can do that so we can stay friends. We go on having another conversation and then in the middle of that he asks if some cetain thing was the reason we broke up . . . Um call me crazy but isnt that something about us dating? Well, the waay he phrased it was a "One last question" type of thing so I'm giving him a second chance and hoping he doesnt screw it up cause I dont know if I'm going to be able to cut all ties with him. if he doesnt.
Oh last comment I especially feel horrible about this cause we had been talking about, early on in the relationship, bad idea, that we could see us together for a long time. Well, I broke up with him the day before our 2 month anniversary . . . yeah real long time.
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