Bad Weekend

My weekend has not been fun. I love my family and all but not so much as to have wanted them over for the weekend. But, family tends not to do what you want them to do so on a weekend that I really just wanna be alone, my house is taken over my my nephews who live in the middle of nowhere so we don't see them much. It probably wouldn't have been so bad if they were a little closer in age but no, one is 10 or 11 (Again they live in the middle of nowhere and I don't see them often) and the other is somewhere around a year old.
The 10-11 year old, having been an only child for 10-11 years of his life, is in constant need of a buddy to play with. (When I want to be alone) And the 1 year old, having been spoiled for his whole year-or-so long life is also in need of constant attention. The one year old also has medical problems that his mother has blown way out of proportion which means he is attached, 24/7, to an IV pole that holds a bag of formula that he is fed through a tube in his nose cause he has acid reflux. (In other words, he spit up and then got a cold or something which lead to a sore throat which lead to the conclusion that he has acid reflux and needs a feeding tube.) So obviously Kim and I don't want to be responsible for a spoiled 1 year old baby attached to a pole so we end up with the 10-11 year old. Don't get me wrong, I love Brandon (the 10-11 year old), but, again, I wanted to be left alone. Needless to say that didn't happen.
Then, add to that the fact that I went to sleep at 3 the morning before they arrived, I had to get up at 7 the next morning, I hadn't gotten much sleep the whole week before they showed up, and I have been stressing about the recital (Which is this weekend) and about the intensive (Which I leave for in less than a month and wont have enough money for so I'm going to be in debt all summer.) This weekend was not the best idea.
But wait, there's more. Brandon ends up taking over the TV room so I cant even vege out. And today, when they are supposed to be picked up we were told that their parents were gonna come get them sometime in the afternoon. Apparently, afternoon includes 8 o'clock at night because that's when they showed up. I love my family I want to spend time with them but we aren't a babysitting service. If you say you are going to pick them up around some time, pick them up then!

Boyfriend Blues

Boyfriends suck. Not that I would know cause I've never had one so I guess it's just that other peoples boyfriends suck. I mean Jacen, Kimmy's boyfriend, is cool and all but not when he's over at 10 o'clock at night watching a very loud movie in the back of out house where my room is when I wanna go to sleep. This was what I didn't like about Nick, Kimmy's last boyfriend. Whenever he came over I felt like I got kicked out of my TV room cause he and Kimmy were in there and being the third wheel really sucks. At least with Jacen it isn't so much of a kicking out as a voluntary banishment. With Nick, he would glare at me if I even came close to walking into the TV room. This still suck though cause I'm tired and tomorrow we're having a party for my grandparents anniversary so I kinda wanna get some sleep. :-( This sucks.

Long Time No See

Dude! It's been forever since I've posted! . . . or just a week and a half . . . hehehe I just checked the calendar, it seems like so much longer. I was gonna feel really bad, not that anybody reads this but still I don't like taking a ton of time between posts on anything. Plus this is just gonna be a fluff post.
So, school is out, Thank You Lord! I don't know if I could have stood much more of it. Seriously, it got really bad towards the end. Awkwardness with guys, annoying table mates, extremely hard classes. But I'm done!!!!! Yay!
Now all I have to do right now is worry about the recital, SMI, and the intensive . . . uh.

Guys Suck

I know I've probably said this before but guys suck. The guy that i turned down that's 9 years older than me completely ignored me today. Like, I'm not trying to be like 'He should still be trying to go out with me' But I think completely ignoring me is a little extreme . . . Right? I mean he's really cool and funny but I would have thought that he would have expected me to turn him down cause
1. I'm NINE years younger than him. And
2. I'm not even legal yet!
I really am starting to concider my Dad's pedophile angle.

Stress'll Do That

Aren't best friends that you've known all your life supposed to be supportive and understanding? I've learned recently that apparently they aren't. I've also learned that if you go to college it's not a real school cause it's not mandatory. All of this I learned from my best friend.
I go to college for school even though I'm supposed to be in high school cause I've been home schooled practically my whole life and my friend has been making fun of me forever which I don't mind cause I'm used to jokes and stuff cause my family has a kind of twisted sense of humor. But lately she has really gotten on my nerves cause she says stuff about how she goes to Public School. (I went to a charter school for a few weeks in Jr. High.) And how no school is a real school unless it's public and finally I got upset because she was saying something about how she has it harder cause she goes to a real school cause she goes to public school and I had had enough so I was like "Oh wow, I go to a public school." Which I do. It's a public community college. And then she has the nerve to tell me that college isn't a real school. By this point I am so close to livid so I just say it back to her as a question. "College isn't real school?" And I think it was either my anger or her horrible word choice that she realized and she covered up by saying that it wasn't real school cause it wasn't mandatory. I swear to you, if we hadn't been in the middle of church I would have probably cussed which I practically never do.
What the heck does she mean college isn't mandatory, at least for me?!?!?!?! Right now everyone including members of my own family think I'm an idiot and I'm not socially adjusted and that I can't learn anything cause I was home schooled. When I get my AA this December that is going to be the first thing that acknowledges that I can think and that I'm not stupid. I have to go to college right now.
I have enough crap piling up against me. I have enough people against me. I don't need my best friend to be one of those people. I need someone to understand that I need something that says I'm not stupid because there are plenty of people who think I am. And I need this degree to make everyone see my mom isn't an idiot either for homeschooling me and my sister.