Catching Up

Sorry I never posted anything about the actual recital night, I just didn't feel like it and this is all I have to say: It went Amazing! It was really fun, and everything went so smoothly.

After recital I had a week off of everything and then I had VBS at church which was awesome! It was really fun, especially cause I had Davina, one of the little little girls from the studio, in my class. One day I ended up in charge of 9 girls! That was almost all of the girls in our group! Most of the boys ended up gravitating toward some Jr. high/freshman (No idea what grade he's actually in) who was really boring, always had a coffee cup in his hands, and barely even did the motions. But he was the only guy leader that wasn't the old dude.

The Saturday after VBS Kim and I left with half of the SMI (Student Missionary Internship) people, which account for less than half of our high school group, on a charter bus to Colorado. It was a two day drive with lots of people I don't like and not many people I do. We stayed for a week and Kim and I each had a different team of about five that did two VBS' a day for the whole week and then we got to get back in the bus with, I think it was, 73-75 teens and adults (Mostly teens), and drive two days home. Which is were I am now, stressing about the fact that I lever for my intensive in four days. AHHHH!

So, it's kinda late and I haven't gotten much sleep this week so I'm going to wait until tomorrow to type out all of the main points of my SMI trip for you but I promise I will tomorrow! I have nothing better to do and I have missed my computer. So I will write again tomorrow afternoon.

Long Time No See

Dude! It's been forever since I've posted! . . . or just a week and a half . . . hehehe I just checked the calendar, it seems like so much longer. I was gonna feel really bad, not that anybody reads this but still I don't like taking a ton of time between posts on anything. Plus this is just gonna be a fluff post.
So, school is out, Thank You Lord! I don't know if I could have stood much more of it. Seriously, it got really bad towards the end. Awkwardness with guys, annoying table mates, extremely hard classes. But I'm done!!!!! Yay!
Now all I have to do right now is worry about the recital, SMI, and the intensive . . . uh.

So for SMI we have to learn a bible verse every week and then write it down and we get graded on how well we did. You have to get 80% to pass or else you have to take it again which isnt a big deal its just annoying cause most of the verses we do we have been reciting since preschool.
I knew this weeks verse, I still know it

Matthew 22:37-38

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment.

I swear I will never again forget the 'and' between 'all your heart AND with all your soul.' Wanna know why? They took 20 pointes off for missing it! Yeah, I know, I got the 80% and passed but still 20 points off for forgetting an 'AND'!!! Seriously! And to add insult to injury, my friend missed five words (That were actually important to the meaning of the verse) and she got a 70%! She got marked off 6 points per word (Yes, I am so pissed I did the math) and I got off 20! Think about it, is 'and' really that important to this verse? No, you could take out two of the three 'and's and still have a perfectly meaningful, not to mention easier to remember, verse!

Bible Study Confusion

For SMI (Student Missionary Internship) I have to do a bible study that my church gave my grade. I've already gone through this study but it's making a lot less sense this time around.
First of all there's a story about a pastor in England or something and then questions about the story. The first question asks how this pastor began his search for God's will. The answer was that he tried to only want God's will (perfectly fine answer) and that he made sure he had no will of his own (the stupid answer). Why would a God who gave us free will want us to throw it away. Yeah we should look for Gods will and want to do it but I don't believe that we should have no will of our own. If we have no will of our own then it isn't our choice to follow God.
I am starting to question a lot about Christianity which really stinks cause if I'm not a Christian I don't know what I would do. I need God because I need to have someone who is always there for me. But some of the stuff in these studies and what people say sounds really weird, like why would God say that. I think I want to read the bible on my own. Like read through the whole thing start to finish. I don't like when people take single verses out of the bible cause it's so much easier to twist the words that way. Sometimes if you just heard the verses before and after a certain verse it would make a lot more sense.