T.M.I.

I realize everyone else's lives are interesting. And there are times when there really cool things that people actually want to know about. But, When I am already not in a good mood I don't really want to hear about your boyfriend's friend's (Who I have only seen in person once . . . at a distance) tramp stamp . . . or his Micky Mouse outfit for that matter.
I also don't really feel up to you making fun of me for something that, seeing as you haven't been living with me for more than a week, you know nothing about.
and lets not forget your criticism of my teaching skills, the decisions I make for my dog, my choice in friends, and just my general personality.
So you might think that this is a friend that I should tell to hit the road, but unfortunately, I have no choice as this is my sister I am talking about, and this is one after noon, in fact it is actually all of 30 minutes that she managed to fit all of this annoyance plus some. Right now the only reason I am not incredibly mad at her is because I get to go home and spend the night alone. For once that is a good thing.

Sorry about the rant but i just had to get it out and there is no other appropriate way to do it.

Of course my sister is always like this and the only reason it is getting to me is because I spent my day trying to figure out what i am supposed to be doing with my life and having absolutely no success.
The other day i was going to make the PostSecret card that I want to send so I could cross that off my Day Zero list. This lead me to try and figure out how to summerize my problems or secrets. That did not work out but one of the things I was trying to make work was one about how everyone keeps telling me that God has a plan and I am trying to trust that and get some clues as to where that plan leads but I am just so tired of waiting! Waiting for a guy, waiting for a direction in life, waiting for a friend I can actually confide in.
No, I'm not just sitting on my butt waiting but doing the things I'm doing are getting me nowhere and I have no idea what else to do. Even the people I know that aren't sure of what they're doing at least have a direction, I am graduating next May and my best idea for a job is to work at the front desk of a hotel . . . ohh exciting! (Note the sarcasm.)
What the heck am I supposed to do???? I feel so lost. I just wish people would stop reminding me so I could live with the feeling locked away and be able to pretend that I am fine.

Attitude Adjustment (NaBloPoMo #15)

I'm assuming my newest challenge, as per God, is to work on having a good attitude even when I am not especially happy. After my cooking experiments did not work too well last night i was just frustrated and annoyed and in a generally bad mood and that mood transfered to this morning when Kim was annoying me a little bit and then having to rush around to shop. It also didn't help much that I just didn't want to be in a good mood, I wanted to have my little pity party. But, when I noticed I was starting to take my annoyance out on my mom I stopped and prayed for the strength to find a good attitude, and it kind of worked.

Then comes time to go to the studio. I have to stay late at the studio, or at least later than normal cause mom is taking the day off. I dont really mind, it's not a big deal. What was actually annoying me once we got there was Jessica and her dogs. They are adorable (Other than the fact that one of them has really bad gas, which I currently smell like :-() but they are so out of control.

One of the things that I can't stand with dogs and dog owners is when the owner keeps repeating a command (like 'sit'), over and over again. I am also not fond of forcing a dog to do what you want more than the first time or two or else you are rewarding the dog for something they didn't even do. Anyway, Jessica is not especially good at disciplining her kids so I dont know why I thought she would be any better at training two dogs. They are all over the place and constantly fighting to find out who is the alpha.

Jessica is convinced that as long as she shows them that she is the alpha there wont be a problem because thats how it worked with her last dog. But, her last dog was an only child, so to speak, now she has two sister. Another problem with her theory is that she isn't showing them that she is supposed to be the alpha. I don't even especially believe in the whole alpha dog thing, but if I did, she is doing it all wrong. They drag her every which way on the leash and do whatever the hell they please. If she is even trying to be alpha, she is doing a horrible job. I wish I could try and train them. Which I might see if she will let me do that over the summer. She want's to get another girl we know to train them but she does agility training and they kind of need some obedience training first so I'll see what I can do :-)

Anyways, I got off track, because of how annoying she and her dogs were being, I was starting to get really annoyed and I just couldn't wait until she left. I have now checked myself and am in a much better mood but i wish I could have thought of it earlier so that I could have tried to adjust while still being annoyed but, oh well, baby staps right?