Stand Still

I just want everything to come to a stand still. Give me a few hours that I can do anything and not worry about other things that I have to do. Time that I could just sit and do nothing during. I cant deal with this constant stress about math and dance and bio. I just need time. But I have to wait a month for that and I don't know if I can wait that long and if I do I don't know if I can enjoy it knowing that I have to go back to this constant stress.
Having an emotional breakdown every Thursday plus one every time something is due in math cant be healthy but I cant help it I cant quit or I wont get my AA and I really need that.
I don't know what to do. I cant even really ask my family for help cause they're all stressed too and whatever space they have to help someone else is taken up by Kimmy's stress cause she has super hard classes.
I'm just at a loss.
I need help!

Boyfriends

I just realized (Which makes me kinda stupid for just realizing it now) that apparently everyone thinks I'm so desperate for a boyfriend or just so unattractive to guys that the only guys that would want date me are either on the rebound of desperate . . . and . . . the desperate guy doesn't even want to go out with me. At this point I'm just trying to keep myself thinking that I just need to wait for the right guy even if he is ten years away. I would really like to have a boyfriend but I guess it's not time yet. Which sucks but, oh well.